Greener - 09.05.2020
The grass is always greener on the otherside
But that doesn't matter
Ill still feel Hollow and Unsatisfied
Seaside Storm - 17.05.2020
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I CAN'T SLEEP - 09.01.2020
I can't sleep
and there's no one to talk to
The one you want
Is too busy for you
I can't sleep
And there's no reason not to
You want to escapre you're brain
But they just won't let you
You're just lonley my friend
You're not sure who to talk to
You can't seem to think
But lots of people LOVE you
You can tackle any weather
You will get through this
You always do
Just don't forget
The ones who care for you
To be named - 20.02.2023
The energy changes when you enter the house
I can't leave my room without feeling scared
I am stuck
I am trapped in this toxic world you have created
I can't breath easy when you're around
Immobilised by fear
Unable to feel safe
One word said and I go back to before
But I ddon't know what before is
I can't see what happened
I can only feel
Only feel how it hurt
MJ❤︎ - a poem for someones small pet
So wild for cheese slices
even wilder for almonds
I'm glad we had such fun together
Sneeking around the cafeteria
Snuggled into my hood
You truely were so good
Your sweet wooden houses
Where you could roam like Godzilla
Ripping up the cardboard tubes
Insinerating every inch
Chilling on your hammock
Chewing out extra windows
--> Mj, named after my true loves desires, you will be missed.
RIP in peices
Toothpaste Tears - 16.12.2019
toothpaste tears
on a heated bathroom floor
i'm not used to this kindness
so thankyou to the man at the door
A letter to my sister - 18.11.19
My sister is burning bridges
The bridges I used to walk
Singed by a dragon
Mistaken for a prince
Can it be Fixed?
Your selfishness
Your entitlement
Self-rightousness
Do you know that you've taken it too far?
In pursuit of feeling like royalty
You've destroyed
Our family
One by One
You cut us all out
The collage of your new life
No longer includes us
The bridges are broken
The pages are torn
You think he'll save you
But prince charming doesn't exist
People do.
Except your humanity
You're not a cartoon
Like the disney films
we used to watch
I'm a person
you are too
Maybe i'll love you
If only you'd love me too.
A poem for the postman you never met - 2020 sometime
Half a poem I have for you
Some of it might not flow
so here it is, lets have a go:
Oh tinder boy
who the fuck are you
chattin' shit
thats what I'll do
to get to know
the way you live
MR.postman
thats what you do
in need of someone
to 'cuddle n shit'
because
being single
it just sucks
and you live with a woman
you try to avoid
for there's so much coughin
It's just too much
when you don't feel safe
as a world is crashing
p.s. I love your beard
Painting my nails - sometime in 2020
There is something frustrating
about painting your nails
Isn't it meant to be
realxing... satisfying even
makes you feel pretty
But what happens to me
i ALWAYS need to pee
Ah Fuck
I just smugded my nails
on the toilet paper
Doing that weird trouser wriggle
the funny foot walk
repainting the smugdes
NOW IT'S EVERYWHERE
all over my thumb
all patchy
just not quite set
Ah fuck it
I tried
Gah. Why didn't I just use fast dry
You let me go (rightly so)- 18.01.2022
If life was different
I wouldn't have done this
If life was differnt
I'd be with you now
How I miss your smile
Your laugh down the phone
How I miss just knowing
when we needed each other
I want to hold you
want to be held by you
Should have listened to my head
not followed my heart
Fooled by slick sentances
and false promises
promises of a future
something to make it worth it
something worth
loosing you
Dumb and nieve
Thinking it was right
Oh how I've never been so wrong
Nothing was ever worth loosing you
If I could take it all back
I
Would
Do
Anything
In the hopes I would get a chance to be with you
Anaesthetic Years - sometime in 2017
Some say love is a drug
Some say love is blind
Blind to my love
You found your drug elsewhere
Blissfully unaware, you drown in your comatosed state
Clouded visions
and unloving eyes
Broken inside you hide
Show yourself, I want to be your high
I look around to try and see beyond you
Your walls
Your car
Your artfical coping mechanisms
One of which was me
You see...
The feeling is blind
What did it mean to you
to numb us both
to take away my sight
my perspective
my sense of myself
Only from a distance
I know I am better than that
I will not be a ghost in my own life
I am not your saviour
I am my own
for kowing my emotions
for knowing this isn't my fauly
for leaving you
and letting the fantacy of fixing you go.
